Is it just me or does 2010 seem to be going by at break neck speeds? In a few days it will be November?? Really?? It needs to slow down a bit. I’m just not ready.
Ready. Hmmm…are we ever ready? I know the life changes going on for me these last several months there was no way I have been ready for. And some of it I actually attempted to do so. Like how my kids are leaving the nest. I now have one baby chick, Kelsey, left. Perry left in May and Zoe in August. To top it off Zoe is now half way around the world visiting her oldest sister, Erin, in Germany and they have jaunted off to Ireland. I have barely adjusted to Zoe being out of the house let alone out of country. But, I am so glad that God gave me what I needed to raise these kids to be adventurous and to follow dreams. As hard as it is on a mama’s nerves sometimes….it is what is best for them. Hold them in love but never hold them possessively.
Well autumn is finally upon us. We all know how much I love fall and winter. Today is especially nice because the temps are where I needed to build a fire in the wood stove and the wind is making that nice howling sound as it grabs hold of the crimson and golden leaves off the trees carrying them off in a swirl of kaleidoscope colors. I find myself, hands wrapped around my steaming coffee mug, just lingering at the window watching nature show us how vibrant this stage in the life cycle can be.
Wow, I am in the autumn of my life. I hadn’t stopped to consider that before. I always thought that once I reached this stage that somehow I would be wiser and more solid in who I am. But I continue to have endless questions and I always seem to be a work in progress. Am I vibrant like autumn? Not too sure about that but I can sure howl like the wind. I guess that when I step away and take a look at myself though I can see where my life is like that of autumn. All around are reminders of a productive spring and summer and the best fruit to come from it being my children. Like fall I am a bit battered around the edges but like those few stubborn flowers that won’t give in until the first snow, I am still here and still reaching heavenward in faith and endurance.
Anyway, now that the cooler hunker down and enjoy days are here I think I may be writing my thoughts down again. Which means anyone stumbling across my little blog here will be subjected to nothing more than ramblings. Nothing profound or intellectual. Just a woman of 50 flitting about like a leaf in the wind.
