Ramblings

Ok, so my first day back to dieting wasn’t very successful. My daughter made a batch of no-bake cookies and those are a temptation I have no strength to resist. I ended up sitting in front of the tv watching a chick flick with a huge glass of milk and a number of those sinful morsels. It was comfort all the way baby. So, do I chalk this up as a last fling before stepping back into some discipline? Consider it chalked.

I spent a great deal of time yesterday scanning all the area pet societies trying to find me a new kitty. I miss my cat Kannah so badly (she passed away on my birthday a few weeks ago) and not having a cat curled up with me in bed at night is unsettling. My girls both have their cats but those cats sleep with them. I need my own little fluff ball. As much as I would love to acquire another Persian I don’t think that is going to happen soon so instead I am trying to find a cat with enough of that prissy attitude to call my own. I just know there has to be a cat out there just for me.
I took the time to alos scan through Netflix to find some exercise videos to download to my blu-ray. I now have 6 of those little jewels waiting for me to load them and use them. (Note that instead I watched a chick flick last night LOL) I WILL use these. I also have a bunch of healthy/weight loss apps loaded onto my IPod Touch waiting to be utilized. I can even access my WW account through this now so I have no excuse to not be keeping track even when I’m away from the house. I am systematically going down the list of my usual excuses and putting into place resources, tools…what have you…that effectively eliminate those excuses. Smart and brutal all at the same time.

Spring. It is all around us. I am loving seeing all the daffodils, forsythia and the budding trees. All my flower beds are showing about 2-3 inches worth of growth on various plants already. Time to get out there and tidy things up a bit. Have some root division I need to do and some general transplanting due to some plants having outgrown their areas. Took a peek at the azalea and I’m hoping they will be full of bloom again before too long. It has been so nice. We probably have only a couple more evenings worth of fire in the woodstove before we clean that up for the season. What an exciting time of the year. Spring and fall are the two seasons with the most hustle and I love them both.

Well, today I am going to sort through some pictures we have on disk. Like a bagillion disks. I received one of those digital picture frames as a gift awhile back and I haven’t taken it out of the box yet. Thought maybe I’d load it up and have it sitting on my desk for some ahhhh moments.

Here is a picture of my dear sweet Kannah that I had for 15 wonderful years. I miss her.

Let's Get Started Again

Ok, I have had it with my preoccupation of late. When last I posted here I was actually sticking to my diet, getting some exercise, chartering our expenses, doing class work, participating in some groups and just in general functioning at full capacity. In the last month since being told to get my butt to CT stat the whirlwind of it all has had me on idle. I do not like this and it is going to stop.

Yes, I have more tests to undergo before they can tell me what it is they found. With each test I clear it is looking less and less like the cancer they and I originally feared which is freaking AWESOME!!! I know that prayer has helped with all of this and when it is all done I’m sure they are going to find a reasonable explanation for the whole thing. And the part that makes it all worth it is to have two doctors tell me they are stunned they didn’t find the original cancer they thought it was. Power of prayer baby…power of prayer. I’m confident this is going to turn out alright.

I will walk away from this whole experience better for it. The insight this has given me is priceless. Never again will I respond in the old way to someone fearing or fighting cancer. This has been an interesting road traveled.

But back to what I originally was saying. I intend to take back my life. I want to be back to what I was doing and then some. I want to feel energy again. When you allow yourself to focus….no…dwell…on one thing…it can sap the energy right out of you. Life is supposed to be a buffet…..go out and sample it all!!

So…first course is back to my WW and until I find out more about my condition, some light exercise. That in itself should help with my energy levels. Back to writing in my blog…that helps clear the mind and prioritize with intent. Back to my being the finance guru. It is the ant mentality and discipline that builds stability. Back to going full tilt in all the groups I am part of. Looking outside oneself is what makes a better me. And more and more as I can add it.

Every day is a gift.