Ok, I have had it with my preoccupation of late. When last I posted here I was actually sticking to my diet, getting some exercise, chartering our expenses, doing class work, participating in some groups and just in general functioning at full capacity. In the last month since being told to get my butt to CT stat the whirlwind of it all has had me on idle. I do not like this and it is going to stop.
Yes, I have more tests to undergo before they can tell me what it is they found. With each test I clear it is looking less and less like the cancer they and I originally feared which is freaking AWESOME!!! I know that prayer has helped with all of this and when it is all done I’m sure they are going to find a reasonable explanation for the whole thing. And the part that makes it all worth it is to have two doctors tell me they are stunned they didn’t find the original cancer they thought it was. Power of prayer baby…power of prayer. I’m confident this is going to turn out alright.
I will walk away from this whole experience better for it. The insight this has given me is priceless. Never again will I respond in the old way to someone fearing or fighting cancer. This has been an interesting road traveled.
But back to what I originally was saying. I intend to take back my life. I want to be back to what I was doing and then some. I want to feel energy again. When you allow yourself to focus….no…dwell…on one thing…it can sap the energy right out of you. Life is supposed to be a buffet…..go out and sample it all!!
So…first course is back to my WW and until I find out more about my condition, some light exercise. That in itself should help with my energy levels. Back to writing in my blog…that helps clear the mind and prioritize with intent. Back to my being the finance guru. It is the ant mentality and discipline that builds stability. Back to going full tilt in all the groups I am part of. Looking outside oneself is what makes a better me. And more and more as I can add it.
Every day is a gift.
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