Well, it has been 17 days since last I wrote. My new found resolve was quickly misplaced. Argh. Not only misplaced in my attempt at better journaling but in the healthier me. Started out fine and found myself quickly dwindling. I hate to say this but one of my biggest stumbling blocks is that dear husband of mine. Even though he could stand to lose a few pounds, he really isn’t feeling led to do so. And I, being the weak willed person I am, find myself following his lead. He did “voice” interest when I threatened to join Jenny Craig. He hates it when I spend money. ;)
So, the first week and a half I found myself down 6 pounds. I felt good about that. Stepped on the scale today and I’m up four bringing my total to 2 pounds lost in 17 days. NOT feeling good about that. So, as much as I think Sparkpeople is a wonderful tool it is meant for more disciplined people and I am NOT that. So I joined Weight Watchers again today. One of the things I like about WW is the point system, which for someone lazy like myself, is a gift since they have done most of the work for me. I have also packed away ALL of my regular cookbooks. Not even one of them is out. I am now down to the half dozen or so healthier cookbooks to use. I have even started to go through them page by page with my little points calculator and am entering the point value of each recipe I would actually use. This should make it easier for me on the long haul. I got out the water bottles to start carrying around with myself for proper hydration and a sense of fullness. I have my fit & fresh containers out and will be using them to their fullest potential along with my measuring cups and spoons. It is amazing how much we misjudge amounts when done by the eye.
I feel pretty crappy about one thing about myself. I am a great starter but have real issues getting to the finish line. I’m not sure what it is that makes that so. I know I do battle with lack of confidence in myself, which could be playing a major role. If I can manage to focus on just keeping this journal up maybe in the days ahead I can unravel this mystery.
I have neglected to mention that I got the all clear on exercise. No damage to my heart, that is worth celebrating. So, I have had that all clear for a solid week. You guessed it; I have not done a bit of exercise. Ok, so it starts today…the walking program. I don’t care if I just walk around the block a few times it is at least a starting point. I would like to walk 4-5 days a week. I know we are about to hit another heat streak so I may have to get up early before the heat or wait until after sundown, either way as long as I follow through.
When I first started blogging I had not thought it would actually start to have a main focus but apparently that is exactly where I am being led to. Hey, I just realized that how I started is really kind of a comment on how I have lived my life. Kind of haphazard. Time to stay aware of that and make some changes.
I can, and I will do this.
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